I keep forgetting that I can be whoever or whatever I want to be. I can wear whatever I want to wear. I don't have to settle on just one thing. If I want to wear skinny jeans, an oversized jumper and boots one day I can, and if the next day I want to wear baggy jeans and tank tops with my TOMS I can, and if the next day I want to wear a floral dress I can. Because there are no rules regarding what I can and cant wear. Nothing to tell me that I HAVE to be just one way. I like so many different kinds of clothes, why cant I wear them all whenever I feel like it? The only thing stopping me is me, really.

So I'm back. I've deleted a bunch of posts. Specific ones. Gunna try and get this place back to a less angsty zone.

I'm medicated, I've got an appointment coming up at some point to start my councilling, just waiting for it, getting my joint problems looked into, my heart weirdness too. It's all getting done. Currently on heavy duty sleeping pills to sort out my sleeping pattern.

Got a job, and now the oppertunity for another one. Still working on my story. Want to start my own business. Lots going on.

Learning to drive still... It's a slow process for me. Still planning on doing my direct access. Saving a flat deposit. Planning on taking a holiday next year.

Lots of things to do... But as always it comes down to money. The bain of my existance.

Fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuck! T-Mobile went on an internet lockdown and blocked pretty much every website, including blogger, as an adult site. Twas annoying. Full update on what you've missed will arrive, first though I have dinner to eat, beer to drink and a happy dance to do!

I wanna go up in the vomit comet. It'd be awesome to experience weightlessness. That's added to my bucket list. So if going in the salad spinner, I think they call it, the G Force machine. That would be cool too.

So I Have a Slight Obsession...

... With cowboy boots. I'm not sure why. I found some I like on Western Wear.


Slouch Boot at £85


Fashion Boot at £100


Loblan Cowboy Boot at £130


Justin Boot £145

Hey blogger... Let me comment on my posts already! Jesus.

It's REALLY hard to concentrate on writing when all I can smell is poop and all I can hear is the annoying arcadey sound of some old Sega game. All blibs and beeps and pings and crappy gunfire. Constantly. With the annoying blinky music in the background.

My brain is melting.

Bike Gear I Want...

... But currently can't afford to buy.


A pair of Minx Draggin' Jeans at £129.99 with which I'll also have to get Knee and Shin Armour at £12.99 and Hip Armour at £14.99. Which gives these a total of £157.97.


A Spada Classic Cruiser Jacket at £110.


A pair of Spidi Eve Gloves at £44.99.


A Pair of Falco Biker Boots at £94.99.

And a helmet I've yet to choose... Indecisive about my brain protection.

So far that's about £407.95... Whoa. Lots of money. Still... You can't really put a price on safety and I'd rather shell out a bunch of money and be safe than spend less and get seriously hurt.